Tarot: Seeing emotional pain coming at me

October 19, 2009

I have been seeing my female cat Dixie sick for the past days and decided to take her to the veterinarian. Before I place her inside the carrying cage, I asked the tarot cards for advice on her health. What I saw in the cards, kind of bothered me-- but didn’t pay too much attention since I have to leave to the veterinarian.

I shuffled my cards and asked “What I need to know about my cat Dixie’s situation?” I spread the deck over the table and picked 3 cards, the King of Coins, 3 of Coins and Ace of Cups.

        I didn’t care to look at the book’s definitions on these cards and decided to contemplated them for a moment and let my intuition lead the way.  When I saw the King of Coins, the first things that came to mind was the view of a doctor, since I associate green with healing. Looking at him, I saw compassion and knowledge. By holding the disc on his left hand, I saw it as providing a solution or perhaps a healing. The 3 of Coins shows a craftsman dedicated to just one of his creations. I saw myself dedicating lots of time to my cat Dixie, while still having the love and support of my husband and my other cat Bushrod, representing by the other 2 disc behind the craftsman. Like a craftsman, loving and working for that creation to become one of his best, I thought of myself giving the best of me to my cat Dixie. When I saw the Ace of Cups with a cup submerged in the bottom of the sea and a fish looking itself over the glass of the cup. I felt like I will have an event full of emotions and seeing the cup full, advice me to be positive and strong against adversity. I saw the advise to celebrate life as it comes despite the odds.

I took my cat to the animal hospital and the reaction of the doctor was not good, he immediately suggested  me to leave my cat with him to perform some x-rays, to see what could be the problem with her breathing. I left thinking that this might not be good at all and the tarot cards came into mind, thinking that they became a message for what its to come.

Two and half hours passed when the doctor called, asking for me to come and discuss the x-rays. By that time my husband was at home and I asked him to come with me, I felt that its not going to be good news and his support was needed. On arrival to the animal hospital, the doctors with knowledge and compassion gave us the bad news  about my cat’s health. The diagnostic is lung cancer and there is nothing that can be done but take loving care of her until its her time. I broke in tear in front of the doctor and my husband, I felt like a special member of my family just received a death sentence. The doctor, gave us some pills for Dixie and just to look for the signs when her life comes to an end, when that will be is uncertain.

While driving back home, I just couldn’t hold my pain and cried my heart out. My husband tried to calmed me down but in my tears and pain.. looking at Dixie, I said “I should took better care of you, maybe you would stand a better chance” my hubby told me that was not my fault, that Dixie is over 9 yrs old and cats like people are not meant to live forever. To others people’s pet are just animals but to me.. Dixie is family.. the first cat that hubby and I have since 2000, rescued from a animal shelter when she was condemned to die among a large quantity of cats without home. We saved her from that death.. but sure we can’t save her from this one.

The cards showed me what I asked about my cat, and as I saw it developed with today’s event.. the final advice still remain.. be positive against adversity and emotions…celebrate life despite the odds..

Card displayed:  "Legacy of the Divine” by Ciro Marchetti

4 of Cups: First Day at Work

       Yesterday, I went to my favorite book store, Book-a-Million and while browsing through the New Age section, I stumbled with this beautiful Tarot deck “Legacy of the Divine Tarot”.  It was not my intention to buy another deck. However, for lack of time for shopping, and the worry of facing a long drive home with bad weather, I didn’t realize that while leaving that section in a hurry, that deck of tarot was still in my hand. I thought, it might be for a reason..  so I purchased it.. despite I already own 6 decks of Tarot and got another one coming in the mail soon.

I arrived home late, with only enough time to get my clothes ready for my first day at work the following day, after 12 months of absentee due to my deployment in Iraq. I went to bed fast and didn’t see the new purchased deck,  until real early in the morning. With enough time to spare before showing up to work, I opened the box and admired the art of this new tarot deck. I decided to shuffled the cards and just pull one card that might represent my day of today.

The 4 of cups came about among all the entire deck. I observed the card for a moment and noticed the man is spaced out, staring at one cup while he have 3 in the ground. I thought he is dreaming for one of the kind, a special cup…. while he still have 3 beautiful cups in the ground. I thought of me, wanting to do something better out of my job instead of the same routine.

I pulled the book that came with the cards to see what meaning might give on this card and it surprised me when it said that “The present situation brings discontent and apathy”, further more said “Nothing will be ever be perfect or your liking, but it can still be enjoyed”.

I left to work thinking about this card…on arrival to my job, I felt mix feelings about this first day. This was not the way I imagined myself to start my first day, doing the same thing before I left to Iraq. I was envisioning to land in my new promotion, which it will teach me new things and challenges. Looking deep into the card, yes I felt like all my energy has been placed in one thing.. the promotion. As the day went by, I kept praying for it to go faster. I did my job as usual and as expected, despite of my 12 months absentee. Now that today is over, until a new day show up, I have learned that I need to keep myself  with my thoughts into reality, that I might not get what I want, that this might come a later time when its really my time…in the meantime.. I need to try to enjoy it and make the best of it.

…..when you get lemons..made lemonade and hope for better times.. :)

Card displayed: 4 of Cups Legacy of the Divine Tarot by Giro Marchetti

Reading into my present day

Oct 2nd, 2009

Early this morning I did a 3 cards draw from my Dream Tarot Deck. Looking into positive/negative influences and outcome spread style. I am very sure my perception in translating the images I see in these card, might be totally different from the author point of view through his book. However I will express here what I perceived and how I associated them to my day.

I read them from left to right..

On card 71 (Telephone) I perceived that I might received a communication or a call that might create emotional stated in me.

On card 49 (Honor) I perceived agreements and accomplishments of some sort. By the gold in the picture, I assume its involving money but a good card after all.

On card 26 (Feline) After looking at the first 2 cards, I saw myself alone in the woods with no other company but my cats. I really not quite sure about this card but as the days go by, I am very sure will find the meaning of it.

Views of my day, related with these cards:

Today, I got a surprised call from one of my Army buddies that went with me to Iraq. I was quite surprise he called  all the way from Seattle, WA. It was quite emotional and pleasing to know that he took his time to find out how I am doing. After his call ended, the card 71 (Telephone) came to my mind and made me wonder if  this was it meant early this morning.

Later during the day, I was called by hubby, telling me that our vehicle was ready to pick up from the mechanic. He was very pleased with the fix, since the vehicle have being in the garage of our house for over a year. Right after, I went to buy his car tag which was over due, since May 2008. The whole ordeal cost us money for sure, but we were pleased that we accomplished positive outcomes from it. Now that I look at it, the second card no. 49 (Honor) came into place.

About the 3rd card 26 (Feline)  Still to figure that one out, however.. after all today’s commotion.. I am writing this and then saw my 2 cats… Yes I am alone with felines but still looking forward to see what other meanings this card can bring.

Card Display: Dream Cards by Lo Scarabeo

How I Got Interested In Tarot Cards?

       Since childhood I always interested in Divination and metaphysics. Coming from a Roman Catholic family, it was hard to search into these matters. During my teens years, I was dragged by one of my friends into to go to this card reader in another town. We skipped school to go to this lady. She read the cards for me, she didn't use fancy cards like nowdays or Rider Waite Tarot type, it was plain cards from which you play spades with it. Somehow, her reading was impressived and very accure and I wanted to one day do the same. Its been years since that reading and still wonder about Tarot cards. I first started with the pendulum in 2007, after all my grandpa used to be a dowser searching for water :) I thought I could do the search on my own now that I am older. It wasn't until 2008 when I bought my first tarot cards set (Gilded Tarot), I played with these for short time but lost interest quick, found them real complicated, perphaps was not my time.



       Recently I got deployed to Iraq and while at there I continue reading metaphisical books and using my pendulum here and there. However, since I tend to have vivid dreams full of symbolism, tarot came to mind again. At the end of my deployment, in most of my dreams, animals were present and thought I need to learn the animal languange somehow. One day was browsing the net for more metaphysical books when these Animal Spirit Guide cards from Steven Farmer popped, I was really drawn into them and bought them. I used them daily and also gave some reading to some of my fellow soldiers. The funny thing is, I don't use typical Tarot spread and do not use the book for references. I just draw the cards I feel it needs for the reading, it could be 3 or up to 5 cards. I look at the animal picture and associate the animal behavior to the situation or person. It seems to make sense to the other person, it's funny when I give them the reading afterworth through the book.. its not quite the same and they rather have the first one. :)

Never thought that Tarot Cards can have an answer to anything, but the more I use them, the more I get amaze of its wisdom.. :)

       Nowdays, I have adquired other Tarot decks and just this week, been using Dream Inspirational Cards from Lo Scarabeo. These cards are full of symbols that I like to play with, figuring out the message hidden in them. I really enjoy these cards as well the Animal Spirit Guide cards. Haven't confirm its accuracy but I am working on it during this week :)

I am going to start posting the cards I draw for myself everyday as an attempt to keep an online journal of my perception and how it develops during the day. Hope you enjoy the reading :)

The Tarot Cards posted on this blog, you can find them at the following links:


The Gilded Tarot by Ciro Marchetti, Barbara Moore

Animal Spirit Guide Cards by Steven Farmer

Dream Cards by Lo Scarabeo